2010... A new outlook for me!

So in the past 3 months, my life has just gotten crazy!

So glad things are starting to calm down!

Looking to get a job from my old employer, get my boys back into Preschool and get going on my Rock Epilepsy projects.

One thing that has stayed with me this entire time is to stay true to myself and don't change who I am for anything!

I have started to allow the "inner Becky" emerge.  I got a tattoo in November...I love it!  I still need to get the color done...just need to get some more $$$.  Greg @ Majestic Tattoo...did the work, it's absolutely amazing.  I brought about 4 pictures and said I really wanted parts of each as one look....I was so happy with the results...Here's one of the first pics of it finished!

Hopefully you can find your "inner" you and let them emerge!

30 Years...Gives me something to strive for.

These are my beautiful parent, back in 1979 on their wedding day.

They have been married 30 years! They have 7 children, 7 grandchildren at the moment, countless number of foster children and a huge collection of friends and family!

Without words, they have shown me what a "Work In Progress" marriage is. They have always worked hard for everything. As kids, we never went without...or should I say without what we needed. We always had wants, but we never needed.
















So...they give me a lot to strive for in my marriage...and I have learned so much from them!
BTW...that's me in the peach dress on the left...I was 4 years old!

All I can say to them is...Thank you...thank you for being strict parents...I learned how to be a productive person in society. Thank you for teaching me valid life skills, I was able to move out on my own after high school. Thank you for your support, even when I didn't think I needed it...it was always there. Thank you for the late night phone calls...when I'm scared about the boys. Thank you for just being great parents...I love you for it!

What a day!

My DS started preschool today. I am so proud of him. We have certainly come a long way since the beginning of this year and getting a handle on his epilepsy.

He had been ready to start for months now. Crazy how fast they grow and change!

So this is a small posting just to acknowledge his big day!

Finding your suitcase...

Happy Tuesday...

I just watched a video by a makeup artist, named Kandee. She sort of opened up about herself and shared some of her struggles. I really like her, her site, her videos. This girl really shines when she's doing her tutorials. She seems to just be full of life and loves every minute of it.



I watched her video and she talks about how everyone carries a suitcase in life and how it seems that what's in it doesn't make sense, but it all really is there for your path in life.



I never really thought of things that way, but it really makes so much sense. She also talked about how she sees light in a broken mirror and how it shines. I immediately thought of a photo I had taken when I was pregnant and how it really has so much meaning after hearing her comment about the mirror.



My photographer, always seems to capture something I don't expect, when she does shoots for us. When I was pregnant, D'Lynn did a photo shoot for me and she took a picture through a broken window...I loved the photo...she is just so amazing.



After this morning, after watching the video posted by Kandee, that photo has such a different meaning to me now. Here it is:




My son, Joaquin, is three years old. This year, he was diagnosed with epilepsy. His diagnosis and prognosis is good, we are hoping within the next few years, he will grow out of it.



In the middle of the diagnosis, he did a week stay at our local hospital to have a 24 hour video EEG done. There was a day that I was driving to the hospital and I stopped at a stop sign and just started to cry. Until that day, I hadn't cried, I was scared, mad, angry, how could I have let this happen to my little man....



At that moment, I promised my son that I would do anything and everything I could to help him and others that have epilepsy.



Since January, my DH and I have started a website to help educate our family and friends about epilepsy. www.joaquinthebean.com We have done the annual walk in Tucson and PHX to show our support, we started making T-shirts, we both blog about our stuggles with everyday and having epilepsy in it. We also started a site to allow musicians who have epilepsy to be able to share their music with other in similar situations. www.rockepilepsy.ning.com This November, we are planning an event to raise money for the Epilepsy Foundation.



Through the broken glass of that picture, I have found what I need to do. I need to be an outspoken activist for my son. I gave up my "career" for my boys, no looking back, no regrets...but I think now I have found my calling...my suitcase makes sense now too.



So, here's to finding your suitcase, dusting it off, and seeing that everything in there is supposed to be. Now go and find your broken mirror or window and find your light...find what makes you shine!



Take Kandee's story with you, I know I will.

Who inspires you? Really, truly inspires you...

1. My kids inspire me in many ways...they make me want to be a better person.
2. My grandma, who I lost to cancer, when i was in high school, inspires me to live the life she would be proud of.
3. My parents and their 30 year marriage inspire me to work hard at my marriage and have my own 30 year anniversary.
4. My brother inspires me to find inner strength, especially when the unknown is staring me down.
5. My sisters, inspire me to find a special connection with each of them.
6. And last, but certianly not least...My Husband. He inspires me to find myself, be myself, and to love myself. He also inpires me to be the best mother, lover, wife I can!

But no matter what he does...He hasn't been able to find the way to inspire me to want to clean my house! HEE HEE...

Hope you can look at those in your life and see who truly inspires you!

The start of my day...

Today started out nice and quiet...and ah so beautiful.
Getting ready to kick this bloglife into gear! So inspired by so many amazing blogs that I've read. Can't wait to dig in and get my creativity flowing!

I added a widget that features my favorite song...the one my husband wrote for me while we were dating! Just say the words...song and lyrics by Ghery Fimbres, he is such an amazing songwriter. I used to be his "muse"...until we had kids! I guess that's okay, they inspire me in so many ways too!

So here's a beautiful sunrise for you!

Hello World...HERE I AM!

After recently working on a blog for my son, I decided to make one for myself.

Hello World...my name is Becky.

I'm going to use this blog to help me on a quest to find the true person I am. Or am supposed to be!

So hang on tight...I'll have lots of great stories for you!